I'm not built to be an unhappy person

I'm sick to death of everything.
This apartment.
This laundry.
The fact that things get dirty.
The law.
Just standing here.
Sometimes I swear I just want to go into my bedroom, 
pull the covers over my head, and never do anything ever again.
I'm drinking like I never have before.
And all I want to do is have another one.
And then everything just gets swallowed up by more disgust.
I'm not built to be an unhappy person.
I like laughing.
I laugh like a banshee at videos on YouTube.
And then I just sit here alone in this stupid little apartment 
wondering what the hell happened to my life.

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